Something You Need to Know About Me!
As I wrote this article, I was in doubt to whether to honestly expose and share my dreams and my passion. Truthfully, I wish that I can just ignore others’ thoughts about me and just being plain of myself and have no worry in doing that. However, I realize, not only that we cannot control others, it is impossible for we need input either in encouraging ways or criticize one, and like it or not as we listen all of those, we have to think of how to react properly. Yes, we cannot control others but we are given the full access to control ourselves! Therefore, I will share as plain as possible of what I want to be and why..
All men dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds, wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act on their dreams with open eyes, to make them possible. ~ T.E. Lawrence
For me, life is a gift that I need to prepare the very best to everyone, my God, my family, friends and of course myself. And as a gift, I need to make sure that the inside is just as attractive as the outside. Yet then I know that a good gift costs much and need extra effort to meet each individual taste. But do not get me wrong, I do not think and never plan to satisfy everyone, it just that I want to give the best out of me. Think this, even though we are all of different taste but all of us surely agree that ice is cold and fire is hot and that is simply I want to be of myself, to be better!
I was once a very shy and timid guy, lived a life full of regret and self blaming. I grew up not in a family which is not desirable. Family dispute is like everyday meal for us yet we cannot say or do anything to fix it but to endure it. I watched how simple things can turn out to big problems for the whole family just because of unable to understand each other. I experience separation and much more. We all felt the pain and the bitterness. One word to conclude all, a love lacking family!
You don’t choose your family. They are God’s gift to you, as you are to them. ~Desmond Tutu
And it ends like about 6 years ago, precisely when I was in my 2nd year of my senior high school. I got the complete privilege to meet and know personally my Creator, my God who then tell me that it was not His plan for me to live a such dull life. He replaces the broken parts with the new one, the bitterness with a hope of better life, the pain with joy of understanding the true love. I begin to see things differently and even being thankful of my circumstances. Through what I experienced since childhood has unconsciously shaped me and developed my dream. This is what happened when we get to meet our Creator that not only He comfort us but giving us a new complete being which also include giving me dream as I was so clueless about my life. As I pursue the dream, I know that I cannot be the same guy anymore, I need to change and the first thing starts from my school results which happen to experience the y=a+b(x)^2, a positive slope. Then other things change too, my personality which I was so quite and shy become assertive and confident that allow me to become the president of my university student body.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)
The journey is not ended yet, in fact it is just started!
I am so thankful yet I totally understand that I have much to learn and always reminded that there is more ahead that I need to go through as to make my dream comes true. It’s doubtlessly that family is my first priority before God and for them especially I want to work hard! For me, I want to at least make sure the people I know will not experience the sick marriage. I promise myself to have a good family which can be inspiration for others. A family of the righteous and blessed!